"Like A Virgin..."

First and foremost, I am proud to say that I am still a virgin. Oh thank God for masturbation, lol. I hear that once you have sex, you can never go back, you'll always want more. And it's not just that which stops me from losing my virginity. I just don't want to feel guilty, and I don't want to wrong anyone. I'm afraid of using people as much as I don't want to be used myself, yet I'm just so horny sometimes that I wish I could have sex.

Sometimes I feel kinda bad. I lust for sex with both genders: men and women. I swear, the curiousity just boggles my mind. One of my sexual fantasies is to have a threesome with a man and a woman. Hell, I also fantasize about being in a group orgy. But I know that those types of situations are hard to come by. And things like those are just considered so taboo in society. I wish it wasn't. Then again, I don't think I can ever engage in casual sex, and I hope I never will have to. So many conflicting and mixed feelings would be involved. It's even worse when people meddle in other people's affairs, which just makes things worse. People love to gossip, especially about sex. And I would find it very hard for someone to have casual sex and not feel bad about it.

Besides, sex is never great unless it's with someone you truly love. I wish to find a romantic lover who loves me unconditionally. I want to have that intimacy, where we're in bed: the flow of time is no longer apparent, both of us moves slowly, caressing each other. We would hug and embrace, our bodies close to each other. French kisses are exchanged. And then things start to heat up, we keep going 'til the last stretch, and then we both cum, a lot. And then when things settle down, we exchange more kisses. Maybe I'll have that kind of love, someday...